I know I'm a dork.....but I've been celebrating Lucille Balls birthday for as long as I can remember lol. When I was little I used to want to buy a cake and sing.....my parents never did that haha. Now I just think about her and smile.

Her birthday was actually yesterday, August 6th, so I'm slightly late in posting this.....

But, here's to the greatest comedian and actress of all time.....

Happy Birthday Lucy! Thank you for all of the laughter you have provided the world. You will never be forgotten because even though you're gone.....you live on through our television sets and our computers (youtube hah).

She would have been 97 yesterday.




My favorite tribute to Lucy:

Today was my last day of work.

Its bittersweet, I'm happy to be finished but I liked the money and Maryanne was fun to ride with lol. I'll write more about that in my next post though.

My schedule for Uconn is finally PERFECT!!! :) Here's what I'm taking:

Music Theory 1
Ear Training 1
Piano 3
Art History 1
Sing and Shout: The History of America Through Song
Introduction to American Politics
Orchestra
Violin Lessons
Choir

Everything really worked out well. The classes are spread out throughout the week pretty evenly and I looked up all my teachers on RateMyProfessors and most of them have happy faces and positive comments lol. I think there's only 2 that had in between smileys but ppl still liked them so it's all good! :)

I'm gonna go to bed now.....I'm definitely gonna post all about my work/bus experiences soon though lol :)

The things coming out of Whoopi and Sherri's mouths are completely ridiculous. I have a few issues with their arguments on the N word. They're arguing that the N word is okay for them to use because they're black. Sherri's saying that she can use it as a term of endearment but she doesn't want to hear it come out of a white persons mouth, which makes no sense whatsoever. Why do they think they can take a word that was never theirs to begin with and turn it around and make it seem positive? The N word was created to degrade black people and was/is used as a derogatory comment. Why would they want to turn it around and make it positive?

If black people are allowed to use the word but white people can't, what happens when a black person marries a white person? The child is mixed, are they allowed to say it or not?

Elisabeth is trying to get her point across that these two races will never be brought together while people are using the N word, no matter if the person using it is white or black or if they're using it in a "positive" or negative way. The use of the word should not appropriate no matter who's mouth it's coming out of.

I hated that when Elisabeth said "We live in the same world" Whoopi jumped down her throat and said "No we don't". By black people using the N word and having the mentality that they "don't live in the same world", they're only segregating themselves.

I love the ladies on The View, I just hate when they have a heated discussion and the table jumps down Elisabeth's throat because she is the only conservative there. She is younger and since she has all these people up against her, it just makes her and any conservative views appear weak.

Today I went to a Mets game with my family. Yeahhh I know, the Mets, they suck blah blah blah. Today's game was INCREDIBLE!!! I had sooo much fun and it was amazing. I couldn't believe how many bases they were stealing and the catches they were making. They played against the Rockies, who didn't score 1 run for the entire game. The Mets won 3-0. Ahh it was awesome. I'm a Mets and a Yankees fan but I have to say, if there was another subway series, I would definitely be rooting for the Mets.

Anyways, I've signed up for my classes for the fall. I'm kind of worried that I signed up for too much. I mean....I signed up for 1 more class than I usually take. I'm afraid I won't be able to handle it. And since I'm going to Uconn I'm not sure what to expect.....if the classes will be harder or more work or whatever. I have Music Theory, Ear Training, and Piano 3 for my music classes. Then I have Intro to Film, Great Discoveries in Archeology, and Sing&Shout: The History of America Through Song (which is also a music class....but it counts as a gen ed too). I have orchestra and my violin lessons......and I signed up for chorus. YEAH CHORUS. I honestly don't know what I'm thinking taking chorus cause I've never done it.......and I'm not a singerrrr. I mean I can carry a tune but thats about it. I want to try it cause it looks like fun but then I don't know if I should cause I've never done it.....and it's an extra rehearsal to go to. My schedule is packed. Mondays and Wednesdays my classes go from like 8am-1pm, with barely any time in between. Monday nights is the chorus rehearsal and Wednesday nights is orchestra rehersal. Tuesdays and Thursdays I only have 1 class from 9:30-10:20 and orchestra from 3-5pm. Fridays I have 3 classes. On top of this crazy ass schedule, I'm going to be getting a work study job on campus. Soooo next semester should be a blaaaast. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to go to classes, study, practice, work, AND do extra stuff.....like join a sorority and a club or two. I'm thinking I might drop a gen ed class and chorus? even though I really don't want to. Maybe I'll just try it out the first week and then drop stuff lol. IDKKK BEING A MUSIC ED MAJOR IS SOOOO STRESSFUL.I can't wait to find out who my roommate is and where I'm living though......whoot.

I can't believe there's only like a month and a half until summer is over. Not cool. My job at the bus company is pretty sweet. I just ride the bus with the handicapped kids and help them buckle and unbuckle themselves. They're really cute. The first week I was riding to Hamden, but then they switched me to an elementary school run. Then the kid who needed an aide on the bus I was on wasn't coming to summer school anymore so they switched me to another elementary school run with this lady named Sheryl. So I was doing 2 hrs in the morning and 2 hrs in the afternoon for the elementary school and then going to Hamden in the afternoon too (yeahhh extra hours). But I think they might switch me back to go to Hamden everday now because Sheryl never needed an aide on her bus. It stinks cause I REALLY like riding on Sheryls bus. Hamden is sooo far, I like a little variety in my life hah. Also, yesterday, Sheryl was telling me about her daughter. Apparently, she sits on the computer all day doing nothing because her friends either don't call her or she decides she doesn't want to go out with them because she doesn't want to drink or go partying. Hmmmm sounds like someone LOL. Everything Sheryl explained to me about her daughter, I could relate to. I got me very excited to know that there ARE other people in the world who are my age that don't go around partying and drinking all the time lol. I honestly thought people like me didn't exist, but apparently they do, I just need to go find them and make friends lol. Sheryl said she would bring her daughter on Monday so we could meet and maybe hang out or something, since we seem to be so alike. That's why they better not change my bus run cause I really want to meet this girl (and I hate going to Hamden lol).

Yeahhh so that's it. I really need to write here more so my posts aren't so long lol.

Goodnight.

WOW that was a long time ago.

This is gonna be short.....

Tonight I played in the Pops concert for the Danbury Symphony it was A-mazing. I looooooove playing in those concerts, especially the pops concert. We played really fun piece.....and really hard. I've never see such ridiculously hard music in my entire life. We played Star Wars and Superman and William Tell and a bunch of other movie/showtunes. It was soo fun.

Anyways, I finally got a summer job. It's only for the month of July but I'm going to make over $800 and its gonna be really easy. My mom drive for the bus company and she found out they needed bus monitors. So all I do is ride the bus to Hamden everyday (M-F) and make sure the kids are behaving. It's about 5 hours a day and it's until the last week of July.

I also FINALLY got violin students!! It's pretty sweet. I got 2 haha. One is a little girl going into 5th grade...she just started the violin. The other is a freshman in high school and I have to get him ready for his audition for GBYO.....which is kind of scary to think about since I just was auditioning for GBYO last year haha, but I can do it. I think I've actually met the kid before while teaching in class with Mrs. Homann so if it's the kid I'm thinking of, he's not that good and should be easy to teach hah. I also started teaching my sister the violin today, finally, she's been bugging me and Mrs. Homann has been bugging me to teach her for forever so I'm finally doing it. She was actually really good at it.......and I'm not just saying that cause she's my sister.....well maybe I am lol.....but I really did think she was good lol.

Well, that's it for now.

I'm 19 today!!! YAY!!! 8-)

I haven't written in my livejournal in forever.

Tomorrow is my last day at school....yayyy. I have 2 more finals to go, piano and music theory. I've practiced for piano......still have to study for theory. My final isn't until 2 tomorrow so I should be ok if I study tonight and then tomorrow before the test. I'm kind of nervous for it but I'm gonna try really hard. I haven't failed a test in that class sooo hopefully it'll be ok. After my theory final my mom is coming to help me pack my stuff.

I can't wait to get rid of my roommate lol.

Last night, she comes walking in at like 12:30 and turns on her desk light, wakes me up, then sits on her bed and used her laptop for like 20 min. Was it really necessary to have the light on to sit on the computer??? Soooo annoying. She doesn't think about anyone else......I feel bad for the girl rooming with her next semester. I better get a good roommate at Uconn, I mean I've gone through 2 already, I think it's about time I get one I like lol.

This morning, I had to get up at 6 to go to math extra help at 7 because my final was at 8. I'm 99% sure I passed though :) Sooo I guess it's worth feeling like crap today lol.

I have to go study now.

By this time tomorrow I'll be done with my freshman year!!!

In the words of Carrie Underwood......"Can I get a woot woot??"

lol Love herrrr <3

I'm still sick. I don't know what it is. It's like a cold but not a really bad one like the last one I had. This ones just making me super tired. All I want to do is sleep, but I can't yet lol.

I'm going home today and I'm very happy about that. I'm going to have the house to myself all night and most of tomorrow cause my family decided to go to PA to see the Amish and the Hershey museum without me. I'm not too bummed about it, the Amish are cool and all but I've already seen it and Hershey park isn't even open so I'm not missing much. What I really wish I could do is go to Nashville for the CMT Festival. I would totally go by myself if I had the money. Maybe I can find some way to go next year lol. It would be sweet, seeing Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, Kellie Pickler, Bo Bice, Josh Turner, ect. I accidentally entered the drawing for the Carrie Underwood fanclub party during that week.....and I don't know how to get it off lol, maybe they'll pick my name and my parents will be like finnne lol. My mom was actually considering it because she's weird and wants to go to Dollywood.....she has to work though :(

One day I want to meet Carrie though lol. I had no idea she was doing Meet and Greets for her concerts when I went so I have to wait for next time. I've thought about it for a long time, if I would actually want to meet her or not. I love her and everything but I would probably be really nervous and make an idiot out of myself and not know what to say. Then I thought about it again and decided maybe it wouldn't be so bad lol. I would just walk up to her and say Hi I'm Lisa.....get an autograph, maybe a hug, and a picture and then leave. I wouldn't have to have a conversation with her haha. I've decided it would be pretty cool lol.

I love how I'm wasting time writing about Carrie Underwood and Nashville.

I want cowboy boots for my birthday :D lol

SOOOOOO tired.............want to sleep. I'm pretty sure I have a cold....again :(

I have my piano project today. I have to play and have everyone sing to it. I'm playing Yankee Doodle and Swanee River. I'm not really excited......but I'm not nervous. I'm just afraid that the class singing is either going to mess me up or they won't be able to follow my playing lol. Or that they won't know Swanee River and I'll end up singing alone lol.

Whatever, I can't wait to get it over with.

I have Music Theory, a violin lesson, and then I have to go to math tutoring for the rest of the day. I have a test tomorrow. I hope I do well on it. My goal is a C.

I should go get ready for class or something. I want Fridayyyy lol.

Thank god there's only 4 more weeks in the semester because I can't stand my roommate. I think she's worse than the last one.

She gets back here last night at like 1:30, goes to bed at 1:45, and tells me "sorrryyy my alarm is going to go off early tomorrow."

I'm a really really light sleeper so I was like greatttt I guess I'm waking up early too. Well, her alarm clock goes off this morning, she gets up, turns her flood light on (her desk light thats so bright it lights up the entire room and wakes me up), and goes to take a shower. I manage to go back to sleep.....until her phone rings at 7:15. Not only does her phone ring but she doesn't even TRY to whisper. She answers the phone in a regular/semi loud tone. She makes absolutely no effort to be quiet. She does everything extremely loud, opening and closing drawers and doors are pretty much the worst (yeahh she likes to slam them)....and that stupid light, I want to flipping take the lightbulb out and get rid of it so she can't use the lamp. To top it all off, she went to leave and forgot something, walked back in, and turned the big light on in the room.....then was like "sorry"

What the fuck.....?
I mean I was checking facebook when she turned the light on......but still lol.

So yeahh now yall know why I'm awake at 7:30 in the morning on a Sunday after only 5 and a half hours of sleep.
Annnd I'm going back to sleep now because she's gone. She better not come back lol.

The last day and a half in a nutshell.

I went to a music forum yesterday and listened to this composer Morten Lauridsen speak. Apparently he's a big deal. I never heard of him cause he composes choral music. But he was really amazing. His music is gorgeous.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVWq5qRrhg0

I think Uconn has like a "not as serious" choir, I think I'm going to join next year lol.

I have a project due in piano on Monday thats stressing me outtt.

I have a meeting with my advisor in like a half hour to tell her that I'm going to Uconn. Basically, my stomach is doing somersaults and I'm flipping out. I think I just hate not knowing how she's going to react. I mean she has no clue......but maybe she'll just be like whatevers and go on her merry way lol.

Yeahh I have to go to my theory homework.

Psychology Test=Tuesday

I've been trying to study for it all day. I got through like over half of my review sheet but I haven't memorized the definitions or done the rest of the readings. I'm sooo fucking screwed. It really sucks. I feel like even if I started forever ago I would still be overwhelmed. I suck at taking really big tests. My roommate does less studying than I do and she acts like she knows everything and I don't know how because that review sheet is taking me forever and I don't even think she's printed it out.

Next semester, I'm rooming with a dumb person.....you know, make myself feel better? lol

I guess I'll just study as much as possible tomorrow, like all night. I have orchestra until 8:30......I think the library stays open until midnight. Yeahhh.....

College sucks. I can't wait for the summerrr and Uconn cause it will be 100 times better, I hope lol.

Exactly 1 month until my solo/quartet recital.

Can't
Wait
For
The
Semester
To
Finish.


I'm sooo tired and I have a huge psychology test next Tuesday and lots of Music Theory homework to do for tomorrow. I have the shows for Sweeney Todd tomorrow from 4-11:30ish, Saturday from 12-5:30ish, and 6-11:30ish. Those are just guesses, I'm not exactly sure about the times but they're somewhere around there. But yeahh I feel like I have no time to study for this huge test and I'm procrastinating because that's what I do when I'm overwhelmed and there's too much stuff to study. I think I have ADD lol. This is why I can't have a real job during school lol.

I went for extra help in theory yesterday cause I didn't know what we were doing and my teacher went over the homework with me. I understood it afterwards but then he started reviewing stuff with me and and found out I didn't memorize my minor key signatures, didn't know the tricks for the key signatures (cause I just memorized them duhh), ect, so he gave me all this extra homework to do for tomorrow on top of the regular homework. I'm just going to do the regular homework and if I don't have the extra stuff done I'll give it to him Monday or something. I just really don't feel like doing anything right now. I really really need to study though.

If I had my own room I would seriously go to sleep right now.....and it's only 9:30.....on a Thursday night lol. I know I'm cool.

But yeah like I said before, I can't wait for the semester to finish. I feel like I'm drowning in work all the time.

I got an im from the sn "inducedsalmon" (IS for short)

IS: what's your number again?
Me: who's this?
IS: a human, just like you.
Me: i don't know you.
IS: maybe so, maybe not.
Me: okkk
Me: haven't you imed me before? told me I told you to eat shit?
IS: don't be a tool. there are a lot of salmon in the sea, but they're probably all the same, just with different faces.
IS: you keep iming me with different sn's all with salmon in them. so stop it.
Me: wtf lol
IS: wtflolzomgz shut up.
Me: you shut up lol
Me: is this tori or john?

They didn't answer. I'm 99% sure it's one or both of them. They're the only ones who used to know my number and would possibly have to ask for it again. They're also the only enemies I have haha.

I just realized I typed this all in the dark, go me lol.

I'm really going to bed now lol.

So I was just on facebook and I found this girl I used to go to school with. She moved a while ago to Ohio, and I wasn't really good friends with her but we knew eachother because we went to the same school and church. Her and her mom were always dressing in the best clothes, perfect hair and makeup, ect. It was slightly annoying.....and it still is lol. I was looking at her pictures and she's soooo rich it's making me sick lol. She has the nicest clothes.....seriously, like model type fashion. Her hair and makeup always look amazing. She's going to Miami University.....yeah, Miami. I saw pictures of her dorm room and it's GORGEOUS. Like, I've never seen a dorm room like that lol. Her family moved to Texas and I saw pictures of her new room there. It was soo flipping nice, with huge windows, and everything matched perfectly. Her kitchen was like granite countertops and omg, it was just like sooo nice. It makes houses here look like dumps lol. I'm slightly jealous lol, not as much about the house.....but the clothes, I wish I could be fashionable like that! lol Maybe one day....when I have $$ to spend on clothes lol.

Anyways, I went to the mall with my brother today. Didn't buy anything.....except $5 headphone lol (which was actually a good deal bc they were originally $20 lol). Some interesting things happened while I was there though, and of course it always happens when I happen to be alone. Me and my brother were hungry so we went to McDonalds.....and got stuff off the $ menu haha. I got my food first and went to get my soda. This tall black guy was standing in front of the machine filling this huge cup with soda. So I'm standing there waiting and he takes like 5 min to get a lid and finally moves aside. So I start filling my cup with Dr. Pepper. I guess he took the wrong lid cause he reached over to get another one and in the process happened to glance at me.

Him: Heyy beautiful, what's your name?
Me: *ignoring/pretending I didn't hear him*
Him: Aww you're not going to talk?
Me: *puts the lid on soda and walks away*

Yeahh, it was all very disturbing lol. I HATE that weirdo guys always notice me and try to talk to me. I don't know if this happens to everyone or if I really am a weirdo magnet lol. It happens to my friend Mariam too so we have something in common. It's really bad when we go out together hahahaha. But yeahhh I went to find my brother and was like DON'T LEAVE ME! No jk haha. I told him what happened and he was like....you should have said fuck you lol....."Hi, my name is fuck you." Goddd, if only I could come up with great comebacks like that lol.

Then me and my brother went into Payless and he decided to leave me there so I was walking around looking for him and this guy from one of those stands stopped me and said he was from a modeling agency and that I "was very beautiful" and should be a model lmao. He practically chased me.......cause he was like "Miss, excuse me...." and like, I just ignore those people so I kept walking, I thought it was one of those people looking to show me a hair straightener lol. I finally turned around and yeah he wanted me to fill out my information so they could "contact me in 3-4 days and schedule an appointment at their modeling agency." I actually thought about it lol. But I said no haha. Then he tried to offer me a job recruiting people in the mall. I was like 1) I'm in college, I can't...... and 2) I'm definitely the wrong person to ask for that job hahaha. But whatever. My mom said if I did do the modeling thing they would probably make me go and pay a bunch of $$ for pics and stuff and then never call me lol. Besides......I'm way too short to be a model haha. Oh well, it was a cool idea lol.

I have to go to bed cause I gotta get up early and go back to school for the Sweeny Todd rehearsal. I'm crossing my fingers it won't be as bad as I'm imagining it lol.

Excuse my last post. I was in pain and wasn't thinking straight lol.

Tonight I played with Natalya in the Danbury Symphony again. It was lots of fun and it brought up those feelings again.....the feelings that make me want to go back to her really bad. I don't know why it's so hard for me to transition to another teacher. I don't know if it's just because Karin is a really sucky teacher and I don't like her and that makes me want to go back to Natalya even more than I would in normal circumstances (aka if I was with a good teacher) or if I would still feel this way if I had a good teacher.

I'm going to Uconn next year. I'm really excited. But am I still going to feel this way? Everyone tells me the violin professor is really good at Uconn. If he's good maybe it will make transitioning teachers easier. When I go to Uconn, I also won't be able to play in the Danbury Symphony.....which I really love doing. But maybe I just enjoy it because I don't get that real orchestra experience at Central. Maybe the feelings of wanting to play in the Danbury Symphony will go away once I get to Uconn because they have a real orchestra.

Maybe when I get to Uconn I can let go of what I'm leaving behind and move ahead. I've done it with everything else. I mean, I've moved on from high school strings which I thought would be harder than anything else.

I never thought changing teachers would be like this. I just feel like I had something really good with Natalya, she's an amazing teacher. I feel like I didn't learn everything I could from her, like I got gipped, because I started as a junior in hs when my classmates had her for 4 yrs or more. I KNOW she wasn't finished with me. It's like I was doing really well and progressing, and now I'm like at a dead stop.

Hopefully it'll all turn back around when I start at Uconn.

Besides.....I get the spend the whole summer taking lessons with Natalya and playing with the Danbury Symphony. And that makes me prettyyy happy!! :D


Yeahh but back to that concert. It was pretty awesome. We played at lot of Strauss waltzes and all the people there were dressed up and they danced. It was cool. I loved it, even if I couldn't play half the music and had to fake it haha. <3

I HATE CRAMPSSSS!!!!!

O_O

I withdrew from sight singing the other day and I'm sooo happy lol.

I think I've told my roommate about 3 times though.

I told her when I first was thinking about dropping it, when I actually dropped it, and then last night she asked me if I took the midterm because hers was this morning. I told her I withdrew so I never took it. She was all like ohh lucky!

Then like she leaves earlier than usual this morning to go take her midterm at 8:15. Class starts at 9. My phone starts ringing at 8:30 and it says her name. I'm like....why is she calling me?? So I pick it up and she's like "Hey, I just wanted to remind you that we have class this morning!" I thought about it for a second and just said...."k thanks, bye" lol. I didn't feel like explaining it again. I WITHDREW FROM THE CLASS. I don't know why that's so hard for her to remember lol.

Yeah sooo today is cool. I can actually go eat breakfast.....and then I have piano at 10, theory at 1, and a violin lesson at 3. I'm probably going to force myself to go to math tutoring afterwards. Wednesdays are officially my math tutoring days lol. Eventually I have to read those chapters for Psychology too :p Maybe I'll start tomorrow and go to the library.

I've been looking at the music for Sweeny Todd and all I can say is, I really hope I'm not the only violinist :p I can't wait until it's over so I can get paiddd!! lol

Spring Break was too short.

Even though I was sick for most of it......I enjoyed sitting around not worrying about anything and doing what I wanted when I wanted to. I wasn't rushing around, thinking about what I had to do next. I love that feeling. I hope the rest of the semester goes by fast so I can have the feeling back.

Good news though. The high school near here is doing Sweeny Todd and they're looking for strings players. So my friend went and asked about it cause the girl running it just happened to be in her Vocal Methods class. We're getting paid $200 each. Ahh I'm so excited. I love Sweeny Todd and now I get to play the music....and get paid lotsa money??? That's flipping sweeeeet <3

That money will definitely last me for the rest of the semester. Now all I have to do is find a summer job.